My eyes are confusing.
Anonymous asked: whats going on with you and your bf?
My B-est F-riend is and will always be my sister. Gabey is a close second, but he has a lot of stuff going on. Caring about someone so far away is really hard, there are misunderstandings and things that cannot be achieved with distance. I think I am better at being alone, he’s not so used to it. He wants someone to be physically there with him, and right now I can’t be that. As far as “B-oy F-riend”, that term doesn’t really correspond to anyone in particular in my life.
I have however become increasingly interested in what causes people to desire, and chase after, these close relationships that go outside of friendship, especially with people with very different thought processes. I read novels and watch films that describe these bonds and I am so amazed by them. I honestly wonder if bonds like that can still exist today.
F-U CK. I don’t care about your rules. Rebellious fever.
Astronomy Test, Psychology Paper, English paper, Math Test, French project, Astronomy project, Figure out how to scan a document to a pdf of multiple pages, senior may application, college application, killing myself in the process..
I can’t stand you sometimes. But I still want you.
Now how does that make sense?
Sometimes I feel as though I keep losing pieces of myself. Some of those I loved the most.
I want clarity. But all I have are dreams and unknowing hope.
I miss how things used to be. I think everyone has changed. I’ve changed too. I think more. I read more. I find myself alone more. I want to be with everyone who has ever made me smile, but still I find myself scared.
I need to stop watching shows after they have already been canceled. I get so attached to the characters and plot lines it’s sad. Finished the final season of Ugly Betty today. I am really glad that Betty chose her career over men, I think she’s my idol. Even though I adored Betty and Henry. My life seems less bright without the awaiting unwatched netflix episodes. Alas, now I just want to work at a magazine. Farewell to a beautiful show.